[ Monday, September 29, 2003 ]
so.if i had a small kid, and we were on the bus and this kid of mine starts making really loud and irritating noises [aka whining], i'll slap him till his cheeks are red and swollen and then i'll threaten [with every intention of carrying out the threat] to cut off his ears if he makes one more sound.
that's what every mother should do. be it on the bus, train, shopping mall, whatever. discipline, bitches, discipline. it'll help make the world a better place to live in.
and this is why i'm not going to have kids.
so today i woke up at 9. when i have an important, unskippable accounting lecture which starts at 10. i managed to bathe, iron a tee and got ready in 45 minutes *gasps* which is a record breaker [for me at least]. managed to get a taxi, which fortunately got me to school at 10 exactly.
anyway, i am now 'learning' how to use Microsoft Excel and you ppl have no idea how boring it is. for real. and i'll be having a test on my 'Excel knowledge' in 2 weeks. howdy har-har.
after school had to rush home, change and follow the mothership to the tailor for measurements for my hari raya costumes. the tailor was a nice enough woman but her house was kinda difficult to find. at little india. somewhere off racecourse road. or somewhere there.
after that, we went to have dinner at Swensens at PS. then the remix version of papa dont preach played and i had this convo with my mom.
me: so the girl is pregnant?
mom: yah. the whole song is about a girl who got herself pregnant but still wants her dad to continue loving her.
hah!
guess who got A for her Web Project?
that's right, haters. keep spinning the jealousy wheel.
soma coma [10:25:00 PM]
[ Sunday, September 28, 2003 ]
am i rotting out.spent yesterday at town for the most part. met up with nurul and amal, shopped for a bit, ate for a bit. then went to bugis. spent most of the time out with these 2 peeps taking photos, which i will put up soon. i think i saw a nice pair of girly[enough] shoes that i'll get for hari raya. hope that'll keep my mom off my back.
i cant believe the fasting month is coming.
so even after a week of falling ill, i still have yet to regain my sense of smell. i cant taste well and i'm getting a bit deaf. my friends in school call me 'senseless'.
oh! went to a bbq at downtown east yesterday night also. plenty of food. plus wine and beer. haahaa.
i can't think of anything else to say.
soma coma [10:21:00 PM]
[ Thursday, September 25, 2003 ]
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.okay i have a serious question. is it that difficult to not pick your nose in public. no seriously. is it? cos it seems that everywhere i fucking go, someone will be picking their goddamed nose. it's not only irritating, it's fucking disgusting too. i mean, sheesh, i cant even blow my nose in public without feeling a tad bit embarrassed. gross.
my econs project is due in two weeks. my comm skills and organisational behaviour projects are due next friday. i've never felt so fucking lost. and i'm hating every minute of it.
i'm lonely in more ways than one.
soma coma [10:42:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, September 24, 2003 ]
you know that feeling, when you are expecting something to happen, but it doesnt?it kinda suck doesnt it.
soma coma [4:56:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, September 23, 2003 ]
everyday without fail during lectures i ask myself why am i letting my mind and body and soul suffer.anyway, me, nurul and kham wrote a poem during an intolerable lecture just now. it goes like this; [it's pretty long]
i was sitting under an apple tree
staring at the deep blue sky
so suddenly i felt this urgent need to pee
but i was so lazy all i did was sigh.
then it started to drizzle and i shivered
my guy came and gave me a hug
we started singing 'cry me a river'
and then came the need to fuck.
"No!" i said, "it's a sin"
but my heart was itching to give in
so i started to lick his chin
oh god! his stubble felt like pins!
then my tongue felt dirty
the mood drained out of me
and then everything was misty
but i felt free!
i whispered in his ear "let's go."
but he stood there like a fool
he started shouting "no, no no!"
he looked so sweet i started to drool.
i just stood there and stared
my drool was making me feel icky
my guy looked disgusted and almost scared
heck he looked just like Mickey!
he gave me a tissue and said "here you disgusting freak."
i'm so emo i started to weep
but in my head i really wanted to give him a kick
instead i cursed him "beep beep beep"
to my horror he gave me one tight slap
what the fuck was he doing?!?!
i stared at him and gave him a map
and said "boy you better get going!"
this time, it's me alone
and i remembered "damn i still need to pee"
i decided to let it go "ahhhh" i moaned
so that's how they found me, under the tree.
we'd better stick to our day jobs, huh.
soma coma [10:48:00 PM]
[ Monday, September 22, 2003 ]
guess what i got today?
this.
i'm a happy person.
anyway, i really hate the weather. one minute it's raining cats and dogs and whatnots, the next minute it's so hot you can fry an egg on the ground. goddamit!! i hate this. make up your mind! don't be giving me false hopes man! wait, i'm still talking bout the weather. right?
wow i confuse myself sometimes.
i'm still a happy person though. well, at least till school starts tomorrow.
soma coma [10:46:00 PM]
[ Sunday, September 21, 2003 ]
so for the past 3 days, i've gone through a fever of 38.4, lost most of my sense of smell, got humiliated at school, got a really dry throat and i can't breathe through my nose anymore. and still i havent gone to the doctor's. i almost went just now but i decided against it. for some reason. which i cant remember but regret anyhow. dammit.went looking for a belt just now. no, i havent lost that much weight yet. but i have this annoying problem with jeans. because of my larger than life ass, i have to buy jeans like 1 or 2 sizes bigger. for them to actually go through my fat butt. so the lower waist part will be kinda loose. so when i sit down, 'HELLO, PANTIES!' fuck my ass. ok i dont mean that. not literally anyway.
trying very hard to make the mothership let me pierce the top part of my left ear. i want it so bad! anyway, i'm off to the bathroom to cut the back part of my hair. i'm currently happy [enough] with the length of my hair but i want the back part to be layered. i mean, if i cant be kate moss, i can at least have stylish hair. or at least i'd like to think so.
ANYWAY, i need 10 teenagers [13-19 yrs] to take part in a very fun survey! if you would like to participate, add me [crimsonfabric@hotmail.com] on msn and i'll survey you through there. i'm desperate. help please!
i'm out.
soma coma [9:31:00 PM]
[ Thursday, September 18, 2003 ]
guess what's starting tomorrow at 10pm?SURVIVOR 7, that's what. hell yeah!
my arms ache. my tummy aches. my legs ache. heck even my butt aches. arms, tummy, legs and ass, that makes my *gasp* WHOLE BODY. so yeah, my whole freaking body hurts. due to yesterday i think. but to those who care, i lost 1 kg after yesterday. hah!
YESTERDAY, UPON THE STAIR
I SAW A MAN WHO WASN'T THERE
HE WASN'T THERE AGAIN TODAY
HOW I WISH HE'D GO AWAY
i'm feeling so cryptic these days for some reason.
soma coma [10:11:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, September 17, 2003 ]
wow today was a really tiring day.school ended at 11.30. there was a captains' ball interclass tournament and i was a reserve. thinking that i wouldnt be playing i just brought along a tshirt. in the end i played with the class, feeling dumb wearing my jeans and chuck taylors, while other players were with their sports attire.
and my class won, yo! in 20 mins [that's how long the game was], we scored 33 goals while our opponent got............. NONE. that's right haters. we scored 1 goal every 1.65 minutes. it's been to long since i last exercised so i forgot how it felt like to have adrenaline in my system. after the game, i was so pink. my cheeks especially. it was weird because i'm quite dark, and then some. but i felt healthier, if that makes any sense.
went home, got a BIG FREAKING BITCH of a headache. it hurts to type so i'll be off now.
soma coma [9:43:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, September 16, 2003 ]
just because you're paranoid doesnt mean they're not after you, my friend.this boy is seriously the cutest boy on earth.
moving on, i got a warning letter from my accounting tutor for skipping last week's tutorial. he was in a bad mood or something but as usual, was speaking in 3rd person. 'mr leong is sick of the system' and 'mr leong know, as a teenager, you tend to.....'. he amuses me.
i lose so much hair when i bathe and when i brush my hair that i have no idea how i am not bald yet.
i'm going to talk like a pirate and nothing's going to stop me!!! well, except for my pathetic knowledge of pirates' tongue of course.
soma coma [9:59:00 PM]
[ Monday, September 15, 2003 ]
i passed CSA[computing]. barely. hah!i need to stop shopping for stuff online. auctions are strictly forbidden! at least till the next time i switch on a computer.
i need to lose some fucking weight. in fact, losing 12 kg before the end of the year would help. a lot!
i need to actually do my tutorial homework. at least the night before. NOT 15 mins before class starts.
damn i need to do a lot of things.
soma coma [10:32:00 PM]
[ Sunday, September 14, 2003 ]
sundays, sundays.HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY OF YOUR 16TH BIRTHDAY, KAK AMEEN!
watched a bit of presidents star charity on tv just now. goodness me, if it takes dumb celebrities to do dumb stunts for us to actually donate to the less fortunate, then well, i have nothing to say.
should i or should i not delete kazaa. fuck all this bullshit. first it was napster, now kazaa. and all this when the 4th season of Gilmore Girls is starting on the 23rd. FUCK THIS SHIT.
i dreamt that i helped deliver twins. i put this lubricant between the woman's legs and 'pooooooop' the babies came out, one by one. what a weird dream to be having.
i need to skip one tutorial this week to go out with naddy to queensway. wonder when it'll be.
i need to sleep, suckers!
soma coma [11:38:00 PM]
[ Saturday, September 13, 2003 ]
so i just came back from kain-shopping with the mothership at arab street. we bought two 'sets' each and since i usually buy ready-made suits i had no idea how much the cloth cost. so imagine my shock when the man said 'okay altogether $217'. i was like 'what?!?' really loudly and the man was making a smirky face. i told my mother to buy only a set each then, but she was all like 'nvm, nvm' and she managed to lower the price to $200. and this is minus the tailor fees which is another $200. hah!we went to eat kaya toast at Ya Kun before that. afterwards, we walked to Bugis cos i wanted to buy a top from Dorothy. it was originally 26 bucks but i got it for 19 cos of the membership thingy. then did a bit of shoe window shopping. damn my mom is serious about making me look like a real girl for this hari raya. bet you i'll hate every minute of it. [except the getting money part.] damn it's good to be young.
anyway, my mom told me my fringe is too long so i cut it. so;
guess who looks like a freaking wannabe skingirl?????????
me.
great. just great.
anyway, as an impulse buyer, i bought Doc Martens boots [12 eyelet] last year and have only worn in three times. any buyers?? i need money to buy new shoes because my 3 yr old jack purcells have shown signs of needing drastic plastic surgery. i'm in [almost] mourning.
nothing good on tv dammit.
soma coma [11:13:00 PM] BECAUSE I CAN.
YOU LOVE ME NOW, DON'T YOU.
pardon me, i have to go look for kain for hari raya with my mother. god bless.
soma coma [4:37:00 PM]
[ Thursday, September 11, 2003 ]
there was a cat outside my neighbour's house this morning when i left for school. thank god it wasnt there when i came home. bloody pests.so i managed to pass my accounts and econs. C and B respectively. don't think i'll do as well for the other 2 subjects though.
my comm skills tutor is a mad woman. never have i met a person as insanely irritating as her. and i have another tutorial with her tomorrow. how am i to stand this.
2 years ago today my history teacher remarked casually how the attacks were similar to those made on pearl harbor and world war 3 just might come sooner than we want.
fuck you for being an asshole today. Childishness is choice.
boredom however, isnt.
soma coma [10:03:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, September 10, 2003 ]
i hate myself sometimes.why? because i lost my matric card[poly] along with my ezlink card [they were hanging from my lanyard which i also lost]. this was when i had met up with amal for lunch at komala's and we were walking towards esplanade library. i panicked like anything, almost on the verge of tears because i didnt want to have to fucking make both cards which were very important. so i called my mom [cos she hates it when i loose things, which i do all the time] and she said [after all the nagging] to report the loss to school and stuff. so i think i calmed down a bit.
so i continued lazing around esplanade library until 5.30 then we both went back to city hall cos i wanted to check whether or not by some miracle someone returned my lost cards to the passenger service office.
AND LO AND FREAKING BEHOLD, MY CARDS ALONG WITH MY LANYARD WERE THERE. i screamed i tell ya. of happiness. heck, even the guy from the service counter was laughing because i was genuinely happy.
and guess what. this exact same thing happened with the exact same person [amal] 2 years ago but it was at khatib and i lost my wallet instead. so amalina is a jinx-cum-lucky charm i guess.
i need to go for memory classes.
yakked too much today. i hate my guts. i swear if i ever loose anything ever again..........
say, where are my keys?!?!?!
soma coma [10:14:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, September 09, 2003 ]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIN-BITCH-SLUT-WHORE. as of now, there's still 1hr15mins left. haahaa.anyhow, decided to skip school today because i was having cramps/diarrhea/constipation. heck i have no idea but my tummy hurts. and i have no mc whatsoever. guess i'll be getting my warning letter soon.
went out with ain to celebrate her 17th birthday [i'm still older thus way more mature bitch.] watched pirates [again!] and i still think it's funny. great movie i tell ya. i can do a mean captain jack sparrow impersonation. or at least i'd like to think so. after the movie i had to go home so we left quite early. sorry for not spending enough time with you hor! hope you had a nice time.
Dear woman with obvious dandruff who sat in front of me on the bus,
Please dont scratch your scalp in public because the white stuff on your head? yeah, it's called dandruff. and it's disgusting.
Dear woman with the 3 kids who sat in front of me on the train,
Please do not sit with your legs apart. while wearing a skirt. with your children sitting next to you. while you scold them for being noisy. at least wear nice underwear even if you still wish to continue doing so. the whole freaking situation was horribly ironic.
Dear citizens of Singapore aka fucktards,
please get some manners and class.
Dear haters of george bush,
click here.
soma coma [11:14:00 PM]
[ Monday, September 08, 2003 ]
it's safe to say 3/4 of the people who wears Che Guevara tshirts don't know who the fuck he is/was.anyhow today was presentation day. had to come to school at 9 to submit the zip disk and accounts lecture starts at 10 so we had early breakfast. during the lecture i read a book, instead. i still refuse to understand something that wont be of much use to me in the years to come.
then me, ash and az went to norgen vazs(sp?), this pseudo american cafe on campus. i ate brownie rockies, which was a scoop of ice cream[i chose old english toffee] with warm brownies and fudge on top. yummy. then came the presentation for our webpages which was bullshit.
all we had to freaking do was navigate the class about our webpages. it was superbly boring, having to sit through 16 other people talk about their webpages. i think i did okay although i didnt have any animations or flash or whatnot.
nurul's zip disk had a virus thingy but luckily it was fixed by the nice computer technician who wore bathroom slippers[no shit.]
and nurul told me she had a crush on me for one week in secondary three. because she thought i was a butch. how fucking gross is that?!? anyhow, she's too much of a female bitch so i will still continue hanging out with her. haahaa.
there's this clique in my lecture group which me and nurul have named the pornstars. simply because they dress like the cheap skanks that they are. pity.
amalina and elaine. wednesday or thursday man. sms/call me you bitches. love ya!
soma coma [9:40:00 PM]
[ Sunday, September 07, 2003 ]
so haven't updated in a few days but i'm still in one piece. i think.anyhow, i finally completed my dumb web project. it was originally quite tacky but now i think it's better. me and nurul were making fun of fuckers who spent waaaaay too much time on their intro pages. like hello dudes. this web page is for your research essay, not fucking family history. i doubt the tutors give a rats ass about how whether or not your dad likes to watch soccer or what dishes your mom likes to cook. sheesh. some people just have NO clue.
so anyhow, saturday i had a class gathering at a classmate's house. it was fun at first then it got boring when they started singing chinese songs [karaoke]. i mean wouldnt they be bored if we[the malay girls] sang malay songs the whole freaking time? so i left pretty early. then met up with a few friends for a few drinks underneath one of their blocks. fun.
why the fuck couldn't a gameboy be called a gamegirl?
and go here cos it's funny as hell. in fact, browse through some of his pages, they're pretty good and real funny.
soma coma [11:39:00 PM]
[ Thursday, September 04, 2003 ]
so despite spending most of the day in school, i still have not fully completed my project, although it's safe to say that i'm almost there.at the end of the day, i want, no, need to say my thanks.thank you to the cat who made me have my worse lunch ever. never have i ever ate standing up before this.
thank you to the man who talked very loudly[in other words, shouting] on his handphone, sitting behind me on the bus. congrats mister. my discman volume of 8 [which is the second loudest] couldnt even drown your annoying hokkien/cantonese conversation.
thank you bus driver who kept on jerking and slowing down everytime we reach a traffic light. oh you think we don't notice it? we do assholes.
on the other hand, i felt like dancing the whole of today.
soma coma [11:04:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, September 03, 2003 ]
a life without hair conditioner is no life at all.boys with shaggy hair and quick wit turn me on like no other. sometimes i see stupid people wearing trucker caps and i wish i could shoot their heads off. dont they realise how stupid they look. sure, some can carry it off but more often than not, the result will be them looking stupid.
i want to be happy always. being bitter and upset takes up too much time and effort and energy. if only these irritating people cease to exist. and school cease to exist. and wars and terrorism cease to exist. i need money and family and friends and my camera[s] and i'll be happy.
not forgetting my discman, my cds. then i'll be content.
oh and aircon, some books and white chocolate. then i'll be extremely happy and content.
is fucken a word? cos it annoys the shit out of me.
soma coma [10:07:00 PM] if i tell you i love you will you buy for me this?
you will won't you?
soma coma [7:51:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, September 02, 2003 ]
woke up really late today. i dreamt that my right arm was bitten by a shark but i didnt go to the hosiptal. no, i went to my grandparents' house. but my arm was found 4 days later by my grandparents who were fishermen. did i fail to mention that the shark was the size of a small kid? weird.went to school really late. did some research, then went to have dinner. it's shitty how today is the second day of the week. which means only 5 more days till school starts.
i don't mean to pity you. but i really do. especially knowing that you're miserable. i'm sure this is fate. what goes around comes around, you hear? and i hope you'll get what you really deserve. stop emailing me asking for sympathy you freak.
this is only the beginning my sweet.
soma coma [10:49:00 PM]
[ Monday, September 01, 2003 ]
You are Captain Jack Sparrow
You're not always clear when you say something, but
you're trustworthy.
What charater from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
TOLD YOU SO.
soma coma [10:02:00 PM] you dont play fair. after you, nothing will be good enough. his shoes aren't well worn like yours. his shirts don't fit like yours do. his hair doesn't resemble yours. nothing will live up to you and i think you know it. smiling now, aren't you old boy? it's like that song 'nothing compares' by sinead o connor.
nothing compares to you.
soma coma [6:20:00 PM]
