[ Sunday, August 31, 2003 ]
i want to be mrs captain jack sparrow. i really do.we've decided that we'll be called besar panjang from now one cos i'm besar and nurul's nose is panjang. [well, at least from some angles]
tomorrow is going to be super boring. i just know it.
soma coma [11:35:00 PM] today was good.
i went to Ya Kun at United Square for breakfast! the kaya toast, soft-boiled eggs and tea. aargh. i can have it for breakfast every fucking day and not get sick i swear. then went to see my new cousin at KK. so cute but he has freakingly long fingers and toes. i found out like today only that immediately after having a baby, the woman will have an estimated 40 days of period. yet ANOTHER reason why i'm not having a baby.
then went to meet amalina at town. went to lido to watch catch a movie, any movie actually when we realised that pirates of the caribbean was playing! of course i just have to watch that show and it was great. best movie i've seen in a long, long time. in fact i'm probably going to watch it a couple more times. johnny depp is such a flexible actor. from being gilbert grape to captain jack sparrows. aargh i love him so.
then went home and bumped into elaine! havent seen her in a long time so we decided to have a catching up session at compass point. peisan came down too! fun times. talked and ate [courtesy of elaine as me and amalina had about 60 cents between us]. we arranged a get together 2 weeks from now. hope it comes through this time. hah.
Who made these?
I did, and I practice with them for three hours a day!
You need to find yourself a girl, matey.
soma coma [12:10:00 AM]
[ Saturday, August 30, 2003 ]
you know blondes have more fun. right?
soma coma [12:04:00 AM]
[ Friday, August 29, 2003 ]
finally my mid terms are over. one week of 'break' but will probably be going to school a few times to complete my web project.went back to cedar for a while after my last test just now. saw a few friends then went to town to have a very late brunch. food sucked. BUT. i bought my favourite kaya toast at YA KUN. i swear that place is the BEST makan place ever. i have converted three friends into fans. that's how good it is.
anyway, was going to buy the shirt that i have gotten my eye on for a few weeks but it wasn't there. hmm.
oh. i have 2 new cousins. boys. one born yesterday and another today. one from my mom's side and the other from my dad's side. i'm gonna have problems remembering names.
soma coma [11:46:00 PM]
[ Thursday, August 28, 2003 ]
damn my comm skill tutor to hell and back. nothing seems to satisfy her. tonnes of my time has been invested on a project that will only cover 10% of my overall grade.fuck this shit. i need to study for my test.
soma coma [9:34:00 PM]
soma coma [11:03:00 AM]
[ Tuesday, August 26, 2003 ]
i think today for the first time since school started i actually ate a meal commonly known as breakfast. me and nurul went to eat cum study at macdonalds in the wee hours of the morning [9-10 actually haahaa.] i think my tummy couldnt handle the sudden change of food schedule so it hurt after that. which, naturally, causes me to have a headache. which made me not want to seat for the accounting paper. which made me do it sloppily. which means failing terribly.blame it all on breakfast.
i want a new computer goddamit. tomorrow is wednesday and i'll be getting my pay on friday i think.
friday, i'm in love.
soma coma [9:44:00 PM]
[ Monday, August 25, 2003 ]
so i had my first econs test just now and it wasn't as difficult as i expected it to be. i'm pretty confident of passing and i hope to get B and above. but if i don't, don't fucking laugh at me fuckers cos i hurt real easy.stayed in school, to study till almost 8. i actually understand accounts because 2 lovely malay girls taught me with the patience of er, really patientable people. thanks honeys! i need to pass accounts because i don't want to have to retake something as shitty as that.
so my mother finished uploading the photos but brought back the wrong diskette home. damn.
the only movie i've been wanting to see since god knows when is opening next week, after my tests are done. so how bout it ain? another round of movie marathon mate? i'll pay for one movie [as promised a few months ago]. but only one hor!
been listening to the cure and the smiths while studying. perfect revison music, i tell ya, perfect!
soma coma [10:24:00 PM]
[ Sunday, August 24, 2003 ]
monday-Microeconomicstuesday-Business Accounting
wednesday-Computer System Applications
friday-Organisational Behaviour
SAY WHAT?!?!
more narcissism will be displayed[hopefully] tomorrow. if the mothership relents. or should i say when the mothership relents.
my handphone is finally fixed after almost 2 weeks of not working[well, on and off actually]. to those whose calls or messages i didnt reply to, give me a break. and sorry for any inconvenience caused. haahaa.
i think i like my new haircolour.
do you remember old boy, what i said when i saw you in that red shirt? do you? you probably don't. cos i don't even think i said it, at least not out loud. i 'said' this is a sign that you're mine, old boy. and then i died a little inside at the cruel irony of that statement. i'm dying a little everyday.
soma coma [11:06:00 PM] so i managed to ask my mom to upload the pics in her office but she only uploaded the ones from last sunday when i went out with nad so here they are:
i know the layout sucks. snapfish is down so i'm stuck with shutterfly. blergh.
soma coma [12:03:00 AM]
[ Thursday, August 21, 2003 ]
laying lost and woundedjust myself to blame
have no life and
being hand fed pain
head's a crying wasteland
filled with shame
cried for help before
nobody came
soma coma [10:57:00 PM] i didn't think it would happen so close to home but it did. i'm so lost and i don't quite know how to react.
anyway, i didn't get an A for my essay. missed it by 2 points. have been staying back late after school for project work for the whole of this week. i have no time to do anything else. once i get home, i'll just turn on the computer and read my notes, trying to cram useless information in my head. then i'll update my blog like i'm doing now. i don't do anything anymore. i havent been stalking everybody's websites like i used to. i don't even know why i even bother switching on my pc.
i miss the freedom of staring at the sky. i miss doing something, anything. i have been thinking a lot about my secondary school friends, like Elaine, Pei San, Christina and Nazdrah for some reason.
so whadya think rizzo? think she can become one of us?
i don't know. she looks too pure to be pink.
oh man. i bumped into a goth girl in my school just now. oh my god she was so cool. oh wow. woopee.
soma coma [10:38:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, August 20, 2003 ]
it's funny how obsessed i am about the colours red and black. well, maybe not exactly an obsession, more of a preference? i don't even know why i'm writing this anyways.so i have to write this essay on the growing commercialisation of the internet and its effects on the world or something like that by 8th september. i'm supossed to do a web project based on that. 8 september is less than a fucking month away.
i am truly blessed with neighbours who burn a shitload of stuff near my window, who plays mahjong at the void deck till, i don't know, 2 in the morning, who holds mass prayer session that last for just over an hour. and all of this in one night. how unselfish of them.
oh my god i want to cut myself. oh my god i'm so depressed. oh my god the world world sucks. oh my god i'm just so pissed at everyone. oh my god everyone should die.
haven't you heard? angst and depression is the in thing nowadays.
soma coma [11:07:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, August 19, 2003 ]
Acc tutor: so do you people think there's any failures?class: err, ah, yes!
me:hell yeah!
acc tutor: nope. nobody failed
class:yeay! *claps and shouts*
me: phew! [as in i literally made that sound as i let out my breath]
so a miracle did happen. i managed to pass. i thought i would be getting 12/40 but i actually managed to get 29/40 which is not bad at all. but don't be expecting the same kind of results for my mid-terms. that one i'll flunk. for sure.
the sky has been brilliant the past few days for some reason. excellent shade of blue and fluffy marshmallow-like clouds.
blonde quote of yesterday by an undiclosed girl *cough*NURUL*cough*
"so why is loss from a fire under profit and loss?"
look ma! i'm a redhead!
soma coma [10:04:00 PM]
[ Monday, August 18, 2003 ]
i'm thinking of taking a media & society or film theory and criticism as a cross-disciplinary subject. hopefully it'll make this whole dumb journey a more pleasant one? we'll see.i'm so physically depleted you don't even know.
soma coma [10:45:00 PM]
[ Sunday, August 17, 2003 ]
YE-YE OUTING.3pm-8pm
TOWN
so today started off rather late, me waking up at 12 and all. then met fatin nad at orchard for some catching up, window shopping and plenty of fun. ate lunch at macdonalds before heading to far east, tangs, paragon, heeren, taka and back to wisma in search of fatin nad's dream slippers. superbly tiring. but we saw a hot guy at heeren and we followed him around just to take his pic [haahaa]. then we sat at starbucks for some drinks and picture whoring.
then stopped by compass point to buy groceries for tomorrow's lunch. i managed to psycho myself to make my own lunch so as to save money for more clothes and shoes and bags and hair dyes and movies and i need money for all that!!!
i think my mom raised my allowance without knowing it. haahaa. the glory of money! fuck love and all that pseudo peace bullshit. money makes the world go round and if you don't know it, you're stupid.
soma coma [10:16:00 PM]
[ Friday, August 15, 2003 ]
i start my mid-terms in exactly 9 days and i have 3 group projects and 1 individual web project due soon. the horror!i think me and my ye-ye sidekick aka the other nadia 'single'-handedly brought retro-ism to singapore. i really do think so. we're nuts about it. haahaa. going out with her on sunday. see! who said my social life is gone?!?
i laugh when i see boys with better nails than me. it's an almost endearing quality, i think, in a man. it has a certain sweetness and absurbness in it.
in class just now i couldnt stand the topic of discussion so i buried my head in my book, supposedly reading really intensely. by accident, i breathed in the 'scent' of liquid paper and i found bliss for a moment. only temporarily.
i desperately need to breathe purchased air once again.
soma coma [11:15:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, August 13, 2003 ]
i think i have a right to be a pessimist. don't you? in fact i think the whole world would be better off if 3/4 of it's people were pessimistic about everything. dissapointment is a bloody thing to put up with anyway.went to bugis this afternoon for some window shopping. wasted 4 bucks on lunch that sucked. even though i was hungry i didn't want to finish it. so i bought the famous kaya toast from raffles hospital. i'm a fan! then followed the super choosy miss ashila all around the place to look for a top. went home to compensate the lack of sleep from the night before.
i bought black dye for a top and i have no idea whatsoever how to dye it. and plus i have to do an analysis of an article for econs. yeeeehawww!
soma coma [9:33:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, August 12, 2003 ]
return of the DIY bangs!it's raining but that's not stopping people from burning papers and other stuff and thus resulting inashes flying all over the goddamed place and making people who live on the 2nd floor suffocate by shutting their windows and breathing recycled air.
i realised after listening to 50cent in my school canteen that that guy annoys me more than eminem. in fact i think i hate him more than i hate eminem. and believe me, that's a lot of hate.
i have a mind of my own yet you try to control me. isn't that a bit selfish?
8am class tomorrow.
8am class tomorrow.
8am class tomorrow.
soma coma [11:12:00 PM]
[ Monday, August 11, 2003 ]
when will you fucking learn that it's not always about you?soma coma [9:54:00 PM]
my hair now.
so, even though my hair is shorter now, it seems that it makes me look more girly. right.
my hair is ridiculously straight now. it has always been this way. give it 4 weeks and the curls will start showing. unfortunately for me.
i need to get an A for that essay. because i told my mom that i messed up my accounting test and she said 'you'd better get an A for that essay, girl. or else.'
i hate the or else threat.
i also hate the fact that i have accounting homework and i have absolutely no idea how to do it. and i need to watch more movies goddamit.
soma coma [9:24:00 PM]
[ Sunday, August 10, 2003 ]
i didn't chicken out.i wish to god that i had.
soma coma [11:32:00 PM]
[ Saturday, August 09, 2003 ]
what do you need friends for when shopping is soooooooooooo much better?so the first half of the day was spent watching cable and lame-ass shows, actually lame-ass shows on cable. then went to Breeks for dinner and their mushroom stuffed with bread crumbs is so delicious. gotta eat there more often.
then went to suntec, cos we wanted to see the fireworks at 8. dorothy perkins is having a huge sale so we eneded up spending almost an hour deciding on what to buy. i bought a shirt and a skirt and after paying and getting a free membership card [because we spent more than 100 bucks there], we went to esplanade to watch the fireworks but by the time we reached there, the fireworks had ended so we took a bus to harbour front, then took NEL home.
a long [half]day. fun too. something i havent felt for quite a bit.
it's funny how we were horribly proud of singapore as a child, then came the hatred for the country as a teenager. and now, empty.
soma coma [10:50:00 PM] if i was 1001 pounds lighter, my hair would be like these;
because if there's one thing i absolutely can't stand, it's long hair.
but i'm don't weigh 88 pounds so i think i'll cut it like this
that is all
soma coma [12:25:00 AM]
[ Thursday, August 07, 2003 ]
it's funny how girls are all starting to look the fucking same. it's hard to be an individual nowadays. everybody seems to be doing to the same fucking thing.anyway, yesterday was my first ever test in poly life and i think i screwed it up pretty bad. i'm only depending on my theory part cos if there's one thing i'm good at, it's bullshitting. after that i went to my granddad's birthday party. 74 freaking years old. took a lot of photos but of course i can't upload them now.
today went by horribly fast. first was econs tutorial followed by comm skills. i had to hand up an outline of my essay. so basically the comm skills tutorial was spent chit-chatting away; the only serious part was when your name was called to be 'interviewed' by the tutor about your outline. i take pride in being one of the two who did on 'a perfect world'. i hope that means more marks. different=special?
tomorrow i have a 2 hour lecture and then i'm done. after that almost 48 hours of freedom awaits me. i will count the hours until then.
sidetrack: i'm cutting my hair on sunday. that is if i don't chicken out. again.
soma coma [10:48:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, August 05, 2003 ]
i want to be honest but i can't cos it would only hurt myself. it's getting tiring, having to put on a front for people. very fucking tiring. you don't like me? too fucking bad then. cos most probably i don't like you too.school was a fucking bore. i came late, was marked as absent so i regret even going in the first place. i have a test tomorow at 5.30 when school ends at 12. damn the system.
fred came and i'm all messy and disgusting.
soma coma [10:32:00 PM]
[ Monday, August 04, 2003 ]
i was supposed to wake up at 7 today to complete my computing homework but of course that didnt happen. i woke up at 8 instead and decided then not to go for my morning lecture. i was late anyway. so the morning was spent eating cereal with super cold milk and doing computing.the fucking man didnt check the homework like he did last week. last week, he went around to check and i didn't do. so of course i had to do it for this week but no........ he didnt check it. that bastard.
so after school i spent one a half hour on 67, from tampines to choa chu kang. for the fun of it. managed to take some nice shots but unfortunately, it won't be uploaded anytime soon.
there's this church near my house and they put up huge signs with 'funny' slogans and they change it every so often. one time the slogan was 'jesus is my rock; and my name is on the roll'.
geddit geddit?!
soma coma [10:32:00 PM]
[ Sunday, August 03, 2003 ]
i was supposed to cut my hair today but i chickened out. i don't know how i want to look like anymore. as my hair grows longer, it becomes wilder. unfortunately i am stuck with wavy hair which is neither straight nor curly but a shitty mixture of both. aargh. it drives me crazy sometimes, most of the time, all the time. i fucking hate it.i bought a 64mb CF card for my digicam. goodbye rolls of film which costs 5 bucks each. goodbye developing blues which costs more than 12 bucks everytime. hello CF card which costs 49 freaking bucks. hello world.
i have computing homework which i have absolutely no idea how to do. but i'm doing it anyway. oh! the teenage life!
soma coma [9:40:00 PM]
[ Saturday, August 02, 2003 ]
nothing much happened today. went to have very late brunch with my mom and then i got the canon a70.yes, you heard it. I GOT MYSELF A DIGITAL CAMERA. extreme pleasure. overjoyed. pure bliss. i can go on and on. and the best thing is, i paid for it myself. do i rock or what.
pictures will be up soon humble earthlings.
soma coma [6:40:00 PM]
[ Friday, August 01, 2003 ]
if i tell you i saw this girl and her eyebrows were the same colour as her face, would you think she has very fair eyebrows or she has a very dark skin tone?just wondering.
anyhow, i've decided to do 'a perfect world' for my essay assignment. help [in any form] would be greatly appreciated.
next week would be my second month of poly. and already i feel tired and my strength is depleting fast. this morning i almost skipped lecture for precious sleep in the library but my bitch of a conscience told me not to. so i endured 2 hours listenign to a woman discussing on how motivation affects our actions blah blah blah.
on the way home, nurul and i were laughing so hard on the bus. all because of a guy who had fish lips. and then we tried imagining how his and nurul's child would look like, cos nurul has a forehead that very much resembles a luo han's[but she covers it up nicely] and that made us laugh even harder.
i had fish for dinner.
soma coma [10:14:00 PM]
