[ Wednesday, April 30, 2003 ]
i can't stop smiling. i can't stop my heart from fluttering everytime i hear his name, his voice. i can't stop the way i still stutter nervously whenever i'm around him. oh, i'm so happy to be alive!mood_ =)
music_west side story[tonight]
soma coma [10:05:00 PM]
[ Monday, April 28, 2003 ]
my mom gave me a scare when she called me 20 mins ago.mom:girl someone in my office was brought to Tan Tock Seng Hospital
me:what?! what the hell for?
mom:don't swear. he had high fever and they suspected SARS
me:*panicking*
mom:i'll call back again if there's good news. bye love you.
me:wait!
line got enganged.
she called me back about 1 min ago saying her colleague just called them saying he didn't have SARS but maybe dengue fever. that's better right?
soma coma [5:07:00 PM] why are episodes 308 and 309 of Gilmore Girls taking such a long time to download? i don't have anything to do then.
mood_impatience
music_velvet underground[run run run]
soma coma [2:46:00 PM]
[ Sunday, April 27, 2003 ]
having the flu drove me half insane. and the fucking heat wasn't making me feel any better. but all in all, the day wasn't that bad. my granny cooked tom yam and it was delicious. yes, the way to my good books is DEFINITELY through my tummy.i want to cut my hair. but fat chicks don't look good with short hair. but i'll probably go thin my hair and fix my D-I-Y bangs.
i need to go buy cds. probably going to salvation army/cash converters sometime this week.
mood_spent
music_white stripes[seven nation army]
soma coma [10:33:00 PM]
[ Saturday, April 26, 2003 ]
was forced by the mothership to go grocery shopping.i was sleeping when she practically ordered me to get up. only good thing from it was that i got to eat dinner outside. oh, and also unpacking. weirdly, i find extreme pleasure in unpacking groceries. makes me feel like an old-fashioned housewife from the seventies, like out of a Brady Bunch show.now i'm tired from walking and carrying 20 kilos of groceries. i thrive for a massage.
mood_aching bones
music_white stripes[7 nation army]
soma coma [10:35:00 PM] i'm full. and sleepy. what a delightful combination.
i am such a sucker for handsome men singing love songs. i think the ultimate love song is wicked games by chris isaac. the lyrics, the guitar, the voice. oohlaalaa. download it and hopefully you'll understand.
went back to cedar for a while. my alma mater. being there brings back horrid memories man. but as bad as being in cedar and *shivers* ncc, i wouldn't have it any other way. at least i think so.
a thing i discovered about myself today. i enjoy public destruction. ama gave me a pocket knife and it gave me an air of supremacy i can't explain. i'm pretty demented i know.
mood_tired
music_chris isaac[wicked games]
soma coma [5:20:00 PM]
[ Friday, April 25, 2003 ]
my hunger is gnawing at me. since i woke up at 10 i only ate a pathetic brownie. okay the brownie wasn't pathetic but it's smallness was. but it's almost 5. and dinner will be at 7. so i'm trying to hold on till then. pray for me and my ridiculous weight loss program. haahaa.i couldn't help myself. i cheated again. i went here. so now i know.
i'm really hungry.
mood_HUNGER[didn't you get it??]
music_placebo[sleeping with ghosts]
soma coma [4:37:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, April 23, 2003 ]
farewell to glitter.i read in straits times[yes, i do read newspapers] that Jonathan Rhys Meyers was screen tested for the role of James Bond, to replace Peirce Brosnan. fyi, they're both irish. woohoo. JRM is such a pretty, pretty boy i find it hard to see him as agent 007. i love him and all, but he's a tad bit too scrawny, at least in my opinion. he does so well at playing twisted characters, shouldn't he continue doing so?
what the fuck did i write that for? another proof of the lack of excitement in my life now. sad case.
mood_torn
music_get up kids[burned bridges]
soma coma [5:50:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, April 22, 2003 ]
downloading smallville and gilmore girls like crazy. things people do when they're bored.mood_anxious
music_beatles[across the universe]
soma coma [10:55:00 AM] i realised something. i'm at a point in my life where anything goes. i' m 3/4 serious, which for a person like me, is the ultimate disaster. if this is to be my destiny then how am i to bear it? i'm glad i'm not the suicidal type. how many times have i wished death upon myself? how many times have i been buried inside myself and pray to die completely? i think i'm a walking contradiction. to want death so much yet to be so scared of pain. but i'm glad.
i feel as though my life would be the perfect setting for a soap opera. i desperately want, no, need to know that they are others like me.
mood_my usual depressed self aka pms
music_cranberries[linger]
soma coma [12:39:00 AM]
[ Monday, April 21, 2003 ]
i was on the bus just now. it was raining and i was watching passing cars and motorcycles making their way, all drenched. watching them makes me feel safe. watching them makes me feel protected. i felt a tiny drop of supremacy. i need help.the bus smelt of acid.
-what's good religion when it's each other we despise-
mood_melodramatic
music_the strokes[is this it]
soma coma [9:59:00 PM] i remember playgrounds. i remember being in a small library, which filled me with such awe. i remember eating ice-cream after school almost everyday. i remember friends who were always there. i remember giggling with her about a boy. i remember my only worry was finishing my homework before school started. i remember being the class clown. and i don't want to remember anything else.
mood_in denial
music_silverchair[cemetery]
soma coma [1:23:00 PM]
[ Sunday, April 20, 2003 ]
shitty day. pissed off to the extreme. will explain more later.soma coma [8:41:00 PM] aargh. woke up today and felt so dirty. fred came, see. for once i didn't have to be issued a warning to bathe by my parents. i voluntarily ran straight to the bathroom. had a nice long hot shower. but still i felt dirty. i hate being a woman.
okay i didn't mean that. not really. i think.
today is sunday. sunday usually means boring day. so today will be a bore. thank god for books.
mood_my tummy aches
music_nico[these days]
soma coma [1:02:00 PM]
[ Saturday, April 19, 2003 ]
Sister. you have your head in the clouds, and like
to live in a fantasy world.
which sonic youth album are you?
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soma coma [10:04:00 PM] i hate html. you heard it here first. confusing shit.
ain just left my house. we went to have lunch, went to the library then came back here. we were singing like nobody's business[well, it IS nobody's business anyways.] she cursed me when she found out i attempted to poison the cats below my block. haha. cat-lover wannabe. =)
-i don't want to be forgotten
i can't be alone
so don't you dare leave me
hanging on the phone-
mood_peaceful
music_placebo[the bitter end]
soma coma [5:35:00 PM] what time is it? barely 8. why am i awake? beats me. i'm getting weirder by the day. life's getting more and more confusing. so many unanswered questions. so little time. everything's fucked up. this is NOT part of my master plan, oh no, it's certainly not. my only consolation is in knowing that there are others just as, or even more, fucked up as i am. forgive me for finding solace in others' misery. tells me that i'm not alone.
-what is my idea of a perfect day? a day free from you-
mood_sleepy
music_tori amos[a sorta fairytale]
soma coma [7:51:00 AM]
[ Friday, April 18, 2003 ]
hey there. don't ask why i changed sites. long story. boring story. none of your business kinda story. so anyway spent a long time today trying to get used to the 'environment' here.for those who still care, my old site was here. heck. if i can't get used to using blogspot i just might go back to the old one. fyi, still contemplating whether or not to poison the cats. stupid feline bitches. hate them. so that's it for today i guess. wanna watch tv. ciao-it hurts to say, but i want you to stay-
mood_exhilarated
music_audioslave[like a stone]
soma coma [5:50:00 PM]
