[ Wednesday, December 31, 2003 ]
i'm very happy because yesterday and today i did some shopping and got a new skirt and a very nice top.anyways today i went out with naddy dear. we met up pretty late so we couldnt catch the 3pm show for school of rock so we bought tickets for the 7.30pm one then we went around shopping!my mom for some reason was highly generous and let me buy that top from topshop i wanted. then we went to city hall to get the vans shoes nad wanted. very nice. i would buy it if she hadn't already bought it and the fact that i have way too many red shoes.
then we went back to orchard and we sat at the place between wisma and taka and took pictures. oh man. there was this whole drama unfolding in front of us, literally. this couple were doing some odd stuff. like they were both crying. and both were trying to play hard to get. it was fun watching them. fucked up singaporeans.
anyways, school of rock rocked. it was really nice. then after the movie it was late so i had to go back. so here i am. 10 mins to the new year.
whapedeedooo.
i really dont get why people make a big deal about new year's day. cant they see that it's just another year closer to the day they finally die? dude, i not a pessimist. i'm a realist.
good night.
soma coma [11:28:00 PM]
[ Monday, December 29, 2003 ]
as seen on tvnad and me. we went outside to 'stretch' during the gig.
nad was wearing some rad loafers
moods. this sucky picture was the least sucky picture among the other sucky pictures.
some of the skankers looked stupid.
silhouette
if y'all haven't guessed it yet, i'm actually just your average psycho-chick. want proof?
anyway, i'm watching snow falling on cedars as i type this. the book is better than the movie. maybe i'm bias cos i read the book before i watched the movie. or maybe cos i wanted someone else to play ishmael chambers. whatever.
peace out.
soma coma [10:14:00 PM] dude. by this time next week, i'll be 18. hah!
saturday's gig was very good, especially the earlier acts. i went with nad, then zul gatecrashed the gig! and i helped him! saw a few bloggers and embarrased one by shouting her name across the street when we were leaving. but overall the gig was good. saw naz again, the green-eyed monster, literally. must go out with her sometime. anyway, singapore needs more gigs like this one but in a bigger space, goddamit! it was very very cramped. errrgh.
yesterday went to watch scary movie 3 with bal. yeah it was a funny movie i guess, in a lame, lame way. then we went window shopping and i saw a top at topshop that i must get. pretty cheap too. i have a feeling my birthday money will be gone an hour after i receive it, i swear.
what is up with the phenomenon of kids with those rollerblade-y shoes? annoying, just like every other kids on the planet. i was talking to balqis bout how irritating they were.
nadia: man, i feel like kicking them and watch them land on their ass!
balqis: nadia, you feel like kicking everyone.
nadia: true that.
but for real. i could kick them and laugh in their face[s].
pictures up later when my mom comes home.
soma coma [2:58:00 PM]
[ Friday, December 26, 2003 ]
so what's this bullshit about 453 movies opening on the 31st of Dec? 2 months of holiday and suddenly 4 days before school starts all these good movies suddenly appear. i hate singapore.what happened to the rain anyway? just last week it was raining cats and dogs and hyenas then suddenly, it's hot as fuck again. i hate singapore.
wow in less than a week it'll be 2004. i would like to think i've grown up, even if only a bit, in the past year. i'll be 18 soon. i think i am happy, or i can be. i don't know. i'm pretty eager to see what the new year brings. i hope by this time next year, i will have in my possession a motorcycle license and a bike.
and a new computer. and a new wardrobe. and if god loves me enough, a new body to boot [hah!]
tomorrow's gig. be there or be square. like spongebob squarepants. look what fever does to my sense of humor!
soma coma [9:07:00 PM]
[ Monday, December 22, 2003 ]
fucking finally! the wedding dinner and other celebrations are over. you know, girls grow up dreaming up their perfect wedding. i don't. cos i'm a motherfucking cheapskate. do y'all know how expensive weddings are? god. what a waste of perfectly good cash. my cousin's studio-cum-outdoor photo album costs 5000 bucks. 5000 bucks. man, just thinking about what i could do with that amount of money makes me horny.the past 3 days passed by rather quickly, thank god. i shant talk much about it. ate too much satay. we 'henna-tattooed' each others' hands on saturday. and i slept at around 4 for the past 3 nights also. nothing new there. but overall it was fun. on sunday, after everything was over, we hanged around the void deck, drinking tea with milk, my favourite, in the silver tins. listened to the adults gossipping, which is really fun to do. honestly.
then today i woke up with slight fever and flu and sore throat. popped some pills and went out with balqis to buy jeans and a christmas present for my mom's office gift-exchange thingy. went to komala's to eat lunch first. yummy. i ate the fries there for the first time. it was nice because it wasnt dripping with oil or coated with salt ala mcdonalds.
then we walked to raffles place. went to the mango sale. i think i'll be going there again with my mom. then we walked to suntec city, bugis and plaza singapura to find a pair of jeans that i like. finally at ps i bought a pair of dark blue jeans. balqis bought a lovely dark pink top. and after that we bought take-away dinner and went to my place. after eating i styled her long, long hair. then she left and here i am with a temperature of 39 degrees, blocked nose and sore throat. i feel rotten.
can anybody reccomend a good place to shorten and taper jeans? fyi the tapering thing is NOT for me. one of my friends wants to taper her jeans. and i wanna shorten my jeans cos my legs are not exactly long. so we figured we'd go together. RECOMMENDATIONS PLEASE.
i like putting up pictures. live with it.
nabillah, my cousin.
me, nabillah and balqis. we're nuts.
we were shopping for indian costumes.
she loves making this face.
my baggy army skirt and fat legs and red pumas.
homecoming!
jaidaa and my granddad. he's a living version of the kfc colonel[sp?]
awwwwwwwwwww! she has a mini butt-chin
the medicine is finally kicking in and i'm actually feeling sleepy even though it's only 1am *gasps* i'm out.
soma coma [11:20:00 PM]
[ Thursday, December 18, 2003 ]
lord of the rings: return of the king.go watch it. the battle scenes are oh-so-great. and all male hobbits are gay.
went out with nad yesterday at bugis. had chicken rice and was rudely disturbed by some salesgirl selling perfume. she looked like she needed some cough syrup. then we went to a cafe and sat and talked and blah blah. talked about forming a band that is not punkrock, cos honestly, it seems that every teenager is in some sort of punkrock band. pffff. we thought of names cos besides the music, everybody knows the next important thing is the band name. too bad i had to leave early to meet my mom, my aunt and cousin at little india to shop for any indian costumes for the wedding on sunday.
and damn it was a humiliating experience. for fat people. i shan't elaborate more. but in the end i got a punjabi suit, the newer designs with the short kinda tops. in..........................[get this] peach. i am gonna look silly, i'll bet it.
then today,me, nabillah, balqis, nabil, fairuz and kak ameen went to watch the final installment in the LOTR trilogy. 3 and a 1/2 hours long, haters. after then we drove to the airport to pick my uncle up. oh my god, his daughter jaidaa is so cute. i will put up pictures tomorrow i think.
oh oh oh. guess who did i bump into before the movie? the crazy perfume-selling salesgirl from yesterday. what a freaky and unwanted coincidence. damn.
GO.
soma coma [11:19:00 PM]
[ Saturday, December 13, 2003 ]
i hate being sick. it's like i dont mind being sick when there's school but other than that, no thanks.holy crap!! gollum is emo!!
my uncle, his aussie wife and my cute cousin is coming down from australia on thursday. i remember about 6 years ago when my uncle gave the news that he had an aussie girlfriend named kylie, my mom said to me "sekali kylie minogue eh?" and i had absolutely no idea who the fuck kylie minogue was. now, i think it's funny, the fact that 6 years ago, kylie minogue was a virtual nobody.
anyways, a shoutout to nabillah. happy 14th birthday freak!!
i'm out.
soma coma [10:39:00 PM]
[ Friday, December 12, 2003 ]
yeay i am so excited cos of the 3hr finale of survivor next friday!!!! cos i'm a loser like that.yesterday my cousin got married. he's the first granchild of the family to tie the knot so the wedding dinner and persandingan is gonna be like a pretty huge affair. anyways yesterday was pretty boring, from ROM to my aunt's place. didnt do much. had intense cramps and bad flu,which both miraculously disappeared today. not that i'm complaining.
today was such a busy day. first took a cab down with balqis to lido to watch love actually again, joining ain, sameema, usha and yati. and some fuckers totally spoiled my mood. you know how sometimes the audiences are so fucking annoying? well, just now was one of those times. i hate it when ppl delibrately draw attention to themselves in a fucking movie theather. DIE FUCKERS.
then after the movie, we went to far east to eat. well, actually we watched balqis eat cos we already ate during the movie. walked around far east for like 10 minutes before leaving them to go to elaine's passing out parade.
took a cab to ang mo kio mac, met up with peisan and some ex-cadets, then took another cab to amoy quee camp. saw my lovely ladies amal, jenna, elaine and michelle.
M'AM ELAINE AND M'AM MICHELLE, I'M SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOU GUYS.
after that around 9.30, me, balqis and peisan went to burger king to eat supper. i'm glad balqis is opening up to ppl. she used to be so fucking shy and quiet among strangers. but under all that she's actually a total nutcase.
it's officially saturday now [12.10 am]. another long day, i think.
soma coma [11:43:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, December 09, 2003 ]
i'm so gonna marry this guysoma coma [1:09:00 AM] this whole week is going to be fucking hectic.
today was spent helping one of my aunties check and pack the wedding gifts [berkats]. her son is getting married. my back hurts like a mofo cos i spent almost four hours sitting on the floor and taping the boxes. thankfully, we managed to finish checking and packing all the gifts today.
then on thursday, there's the nikah, which is the er, er the swearing of oaths? or smt like that. which means they're officially married blah blah. [their wedding dinner and stuff will be on the 20th and 21th, thank god.]then on the same day, amalina is having her passing out ceremony.
on friday is elaine's passing out ceremony. then on saturday there's ashila's open house and my cousin's birthday.
just typing the schedule was tiring.
and because i can, here are some pictures.
oh! oh! oh! when i was in secondary school, i was the most moody and grumpy and angsty piece of shit ever. i looked like this 3/4 of the time.
yes, but people put up with my bullshit cos they all had a crush on me.
THE END.
soma coma [12:30:00 AM]
[ Saturday, December 06, 2003 ]
watched love actually on friday. and i wanna watch it again. and again. and go spend all my money. and then become broke and feel pathetic.went to 8 houses today. unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you look at the situation, the owner of 7 of these houses cooked like so freaking much. i feel as stuffed as a turkey at thanksgiving. it was no fun at all to sit at one corner, smile like a freaking mannequin at comments which are totally unfunny.
it made me realise how utterly boring adults are. like who cares how much the sofa cover costs? or how to make that particular dish? cant give a blasted damn.
oh oh oh and yesterday, i walked past this butch. and she was wearing the same cologne as my dad. dude! she smells like my dad! kinda freaky ah, if you think about it really hard.
i'll go and bathe now.
soma coma [11:31:00 PM]
[ Friday, December 05, 2003 ]
one month one month one month.i wish my hair would hurry up and curl already. i think i've said it before but i'll say it again. i read somewhere that your hair, if uncombed for a long period, could curl. anybody who've seen me would know that i havent combed my hair in ages. so when goddamit, when?!?!
maybe i should just go to the hairdresser.
anyway for my birthday the parentship would get me 2 presents. and i get to choose one of them. i chose this. i might change my mind, me being the forever indecisive person that i am.
i might be watching love actually tomorrow. i need to celebrate my current freedom goddammit!!
soma coma [11:24:00 AM]
[ Wednesday, December 03, 2003 ]
i figured out what i have to do, what i must do to feel right again.RETAIL THERAPY.
what better thing to do, now that i actually have money? i dont believe in the theory of saving money. yeah yeah in the long run its good blah blah blah. but i'm almost 18 years old. i'm allowed to be reckless goddammit.
so that's it then.
soma coma [9:58:00 PM] finally.
no more papers to take. i dont give a flying fuck anymore. retake accounts? sure, whatever. it's not as if thats the only thing thats fucking screwed up in my life anyway.
i dont know whats happening around me, to me anymore. it's like i finally succumb to the fact that god hates me. and there is nothing in my life that i have control over. telling myself this is just a phase, just a fucking phase, is getting tiring.
i look like i didn't sleep for 2 days. which is true, kinda. i only slept for 6 hours in the past 2 days. my body is so tensed up, and i'm so tired i can hardly do anything. at night, when i try to sleep, i end up staring at the ceiling, at the darkness that surrounds me. and i think. that'll go on for about an hour before i realise that i'm even doing it. and then i'll become frustrated and turn on the light, get a book, get into a comfortable position and read.
this is my routine. oh well, at least i have one, albeit a tiring, numbing one.
let's go back to playing the pretend game, shall we? i got the stuff that i bought online in the mail today and that made me happy. i ate seafood for dinner and that made me happy too. i got 4 new books to read and that made me the happiest.
I spoke into his eyes
"I thought you died alone
A long long time ago"
soma coma [6:53:00 PM]
