[ Thursday, October 30, 2003 ]
oh my god i have the most handsomest 2 month old baby cousin EVER. pictures up soon suckers.and today, my friends, i came across this picture of the hottest guy ever.
YOU KNOW YOU THINK HE'S HOT STUFF.
i dont even know who the fuck he is but yeah. wow. i know i know. its so superficial but who fucking cares? i mean, look at him!
yeah exams are in 4 days and i know nothing about anything.
my mom got free tickets to matchstick men, tomorrow night at 9.30 pm. i think i'm going with nurul and we are probably going to dress up. its halloween after all, my sweets.
i need to study!!
soma coma [8:40:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, October 28, 2003 ]
ok i have something to say. i have insomnia. for real, haters. i cant sleep. you have any idea how tiring tossing and turning is? do you? cos i do. and its unfair. when i get to sleep its like 2 in the morning and i have to get up at 4.30 to have breakfast for fasting. this whole month. and then i'll feel tired the whole day.and how effective is studying anyway when you cant munch on something? seriously. i demand that all muslim students take the exam only after the fasting period. and y'all know my word is law.
wow not biting my nails is about driving me nuts.
i need to buy cds so i'll prob drop by Tower this week. any cds to reccommend? no sum41 or simple plan or some emo bull please thank you very much.
i better go try and sleep now. if i'm lucky i might fall asleep at 1.
soma coma [10:46:00 PM]
[ Monday, October 27, 2003 ]
guess who turns 18 in 69 days?????yes people, i actually keep count. who doesnt?!
wow 18. wonder how that'll feel like.
soma coma [10:13:00 PM] i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored [repeat this 35215 times]
so. i woke up really late today. no mood whatsoever to even go through my notes. being a couch potato [minus the binging on snacks cos i'm fasting] almost the whole day, pretty much. if the rest of the week is gonna be as unproductive as today, i'll probably go nuts.
anyway, i caught a video on mtv. and the song, it had this line 'i'm sorry i cant be perfect' or something. i remember when i was 15 or 16, i used to walk around with so much angst and confusion and my quote on life was 'i'm sorry i'm not perfect'. but that was then and this is now.
now, i'm sorry you even want me to be perfect. now, i'm sorry you cant see me for me, beyond my imperfections.
anyway, back to the song. it was sung by simple plan. i mean, if i wanted a band to sing my 'anthem', it'd certainly wont be some pre-teen scene band who looks and sounds like 34224 other 'bands' in the entire universe. what an embarrasment.
slightly more than 2 hours to break-fast. strangely i'm not hungry or thirsty. if anything, i'm bored half to death, if you havent realised that from the start of this post.
i think i'll go catch 'far and away' on cable now.
soma coma [5:09:00 PM]
[ Sunday, October 26, 2003 ]
phew yesterday was a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally tiring day. met up with nad at Tampines for a bit. went to the gig at some tampines cc. it was a good enough show i guess but it was an even better excuse to people watch. and makes for very good making fun of ppl. saw a lot of familiar faces, including anna who looked even prettier in real life. and other random bloggers. left at 6plus to go to the costume party at nyjc.met up with bal before that. we reached nyjc and it was very dark and uncrowded. actually i dont know what i was expecting of the whole party. saw 2 guys in drag [one french maid and one whore] and boy did they look comfortable. yati came as a witch and ain was a pirate. stayed for a bit then left the place. was lost cos 2 out of the 3 gates were locked so we had to walk a long way to the main gate and then realised that the busstop at the main gate didnt have any buses that we could take. decided to take a cab instead.
reached home, had a cold shower, ate some friend noodles my mom made and used the internet for a bit.
oh, those of you reading this. add me [crimsonfabric@hotmail.com] on friendster or suffer a fate worse than death. damn that friendster bullshit is addictive.
off to the granny's now. i'm hungry.
soma coma [1:48:00 PM]
[ Friday, October 24, 2003 ]
i actually woke up at 1.30 today. was rushed by mom to bathe and get ready cos she made reservations for high tea at the royal plaza on scotts at 2.30 so blah blah blah i hate rushing.so at the restaurant itself i realised how mad i really am. while taking food [buffet style, see] i didnt even notice i was singing aloud, in fact i didnt even know i was singing at all, till this kid was giggling at me. sad fact right? gee i need to get a life.
after eating i was as stuffed as a turkey at thanksgiving. then went to window shop a while before going back. met nurul on the way home.
tomorrow theres a costume party like at ain's school so i'm going. prob as the slackest pirate ever. bandanna, eye patch. that's about it. hope it will be fun!
Yaz says:
i went 'blind', sat on the steps and felt like puking...how weird is that? and i sat there regardless of the fact that the gecko was prolly still there witnessing my misery...silently gloating for all its family members that i got my dad to kill
kak ameen sprained her ankle trying to 'escape' from a lizard haahaa. classic.
soma coma [11:32:00 PM]
[ Thursday, October 23, 2003 ]
today is last day of the semester[aka last day of school for the year.]. the next semester starts January 5th. it feels weird, kinda. maybe cos school started in July and all. but whatever i'm glad after the exams i'll be free for 2 months. hoping to get a job so that i have money to shop till i drop.but i am going to miss my classmates. sickening thing is we'll be in different tutorial groups next year. new rule. it sucks. i mean we've obviously bonded and stuff and now i have to start making new friends. its a tedious process, this whole making friends business. i should know.
i think the most frightening thing that can happen to anyone is to have someone know his/her weaknesses. to know someone else holds the knowledge of what can be used against you is scary and not very nice.
i think i know yours.
soma coma [11:05:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, October 22, 2003 ]
today was a long day i guess. it started at 8 in the morning and i had a tutorial and a lecture till 12. then went to pasir ris library to slack for a bit with the 2 aliens before meeting up with amal. despite exams being around the corner, i have to make time for books. they help me stay sane. and this is why i will probably fail my exams.after that, met up with amal to watch the movie UNDERWORLD.
before i begin *ahem ahem* meet my future husband, wont you?
hell yeah.
so if you though he was hot on felicity [and damn i miss that show. am probably the only nerd who caught the series from start to end] you should watch him be a half human half vampire-lycan. sexy stuff.
so you read about underworld and you think, not a vampire movie again? been there. done there. right? almost. cos its a pretty good movie. i mean not oscar-winning kind but yeah watching it was fun.
i pee-ed a lot today. and yesterday. and the day before.
what do you do when you see a person close to you slowly being consumed in vanity? kinda self-obsessed like. the 'i have to look good for people and to prove to myself that i am pretty' kind of thing. so what do you do huh?
i wanna get a pair of shades.
soma coma [10:26:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, October 21, 2003 ]
happy?!?soma coma [11:19:00 PM] so thats it. 'slow' is my theme song of the week. by kylie minogue, the most overated singer on earth and lover of possibly the hottest man on earth, oliver martinez. but hell, this song refuses to leave my head. go download it if you want to know what i mean. pity the other two aliens cos they have to put up with my singing this song every minute.
so dubya is in singapore, even as you read this. possibly the most exciting person to step on our shores other than, of course michael jackson himself. you know, us singaporeans really ought to get lives. and a bit of manners while we're at it. i know kiasu-ism is supposed to be our trademark or something but its goddamned embarrasing.
class tomorrow at 8. which means i have to wake up at 6. unfair!!
fasting month is starting next week. 2 reasons why fasting is difficult to me. and it aint even about food. well, not technically. but the 2 reasons are.......
no cursing
no nail-biting
yeah so cussing is like a fullstop to my every spoken sentence. and i bite my nails when i feel happy, nervous, scared, bored, sad. you know, everyday emotions? so yeah its pretty hard to curb the habit.
even as i sit here i see a baby lizard on my wall. going to call the pestbuster of the house aka my mom.
soma coma [10:47:00 PM]
[ Monday, October 20, 2003 ]
i promised you photos, here's your goddamned photos!the three aliens
the three aliens posing
LAUGH AND DIE SUCKERS.
part of my class. and yeah, i'm the fat kid in the class.
end.
soma coma [10:58:00 PM]
[ Sunday, October 19, 2003 ]
okay 15 mins before american beauty starts.so sundays are incredibly boring, isnt it? weekly trips to the granny's are almost always boring. i'll sit quietly in the room, reading. or now with the new addition to the family, i'll be playing with the bald headed baby. but yeah it's boring yo. that's three 'borings' in one paragraph so you can bet your ass i'm bored as fuck.
thus, instead i will talk about another issue that's been annoying me since god knows when. its the skinny-girls-who-whine-about-feeling-fat syndrome. how irritating is that. believe me when i say that unless you have been fat before or are presently fat, you have no idea what being fat feels like. so you have no right whatsoever to say that 'oh my god, i ate an ice-cream bar! i'm so fat!' stop whining already. even i as a fat bitch dont whine about being fat that much. and its really insensitive to say that in front of a fat person. so if you ,who has a nice enough body, are 'fat', what about us whales?
i've had enough. the next skinny ass person to say the phrase will get a thorough bashing. and i mean it goddamit.
with that off my chest, i'll go and cleanse, tone and moisturize my face so that at least my face is clean even though i'm fat.
goodbye suckers.
soma coma [9:46:00 PM]
[ Saturday, October 18, 2003 ]
so i had school just now at 9 and i woke up late. as a result of rushing to bathe, get ready and pack my bag in less than 20 mins, i forgot to bring my hp. which was a really annoying experience cos it made me realise how fucking dependable i am with my hp. had to borrow hp[s] from friends and it was pretty leceh lah. plus i suck at remembering phone numbers so hope it doesnt happen again.after class, the three aliens went to tampines mall to have brunch at kfc. we discussed the possibilities of turning vegetarian and decides it was HIGHLY UNLIKELY [aka never gonna happen.] god damn what are animals for if not for consumption. we are carnivores and darned proud of it.
quote of the day by miss ashila 'a day without meat is like a day without bra.'
then we acted like the immature teenagers we are and took neoprints. i swear Tampines is a strange place. tis a land of mats with tapered pants and minahs with long flat hair.
then went home and got a well deserved 3 hr 'nap'. and so here we are.
i dont quite like mass e-mailing so i'll just leave a link here
soma coma [9:12:00 PM]
[ Friday, October 17, 2003 ]
presentation just now was errrrrrrr aaahhhhhhh okay i guess. except that we screwed up. in a way. but whatever. the important thing is that i'm done with project work. no more long, tiring project meetings, no more having to do powerpoint slides, no more having to type bullshit on Word. no. more. i can watch movies, go out, sleep late and all!except not. cos exams are around the corner and i have to study. emphasis on the word have to. i hate my life.
so i had to go to school on those killer heels and my formal attire, feeling stupid the entire time. but wow everyone looked so classy. the girls look sophisticated and the guys look dashingly handsome. took pictures which i will post on monday. i think i could get used to wearing those things cos after today, it's gonna be hard to go back to looking sloppy.
my left ear hurts, where the piercing is. kinda swollen and very red. maybe cos i changed the stud. but yeah it hurts like a mofo.
you know, i need to put a face to the guy of my dreams. as in literally. in almost all of my dreams, i can feel his presence. sometimes guiding, sometime teasing, sometimes angry and tense but almost always there. but i cant see him and it pisses me off. or arouses my curiosity. i need to know.
soma coma [10:31:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, October 15, 2003 ]
okay took a nap this afternoon and for the second time in less than a month i dreamt that i gave birth to twins. but this time i got to see the sex and appearance of the babies [i didnt the first time round]. both were female and cute looking which is a suprise since most newborn babies look like crap anyway. what does this mean?!?! i remember the giving birth 'procedure' was relatively painless and i was goddarned happy about the whole experience of being pregnant.baffling isnt it?
damn it i've been so busy its a miracle i am even breathing. so much work to be done in such a short period of time. group projects are interesting in the beginning but as the deadline approaches, everybody in the group is so sick and tired of the topic and each other that little work is done. okay breathe in, beathe out nadia, after this presentation on friday, ALL group projects are DONE. finito.
those who wants to see me make a fool of myself by wearing a business suit and heels do drop by Temasek Polytechnic on Friday. who knows, you might walk away with a very good laugh.
these heels are a killer.
soma coma [9:38:00 PM]
[ Monday, October 13, 2003 ]
somebody, anybody, everybody [?] please please please get me this for my birthday. PLEASE!it's that's not a hint i dont know what is.
i have a confession. see, sometimes i turn on my aircon when i'm getting ready, instead of my fan [cos i dont want to ruin my hair]. so yesterday i did that but i forgot to turn it off. so from 12pm-10pm the aircon was on. AND I FEEL SUPERBLY GUILTY GODDAMIT!! i dont even know how much that kinda thing cost. heck, i rarely even know the cost of my handphone bills. somebody help me ease this burden [aka tremendous amount of guilt]. damn i really feel like a spoilt kid now.
*whistles innocently*
oh and also i brought 65 bucks to school today and now, i have 46 bucks left. i swear i have absolutely no idea where my money goes.
soma coma [10:29:00 PM] i'm in school sitting beside a lazy ass girl called azeana. just finished a dumb test on how to use microsoft excel. the stupid program HANGED on me. halfway. when i was ALMOST finished. and i didnt save it of cos. which idiot saves a program before it's completed? but that was what my tutor said i should have done. damn these useless lessons.
it's getting crowded.
soma coma [2:22:00 PM]
[ Sunday, October 12, 2003 ]
pretty boys pretty boys pretty boys pretty boys.i'm obsessed.
i read the newpaper today and the guy who pierced my ear was in one of the articles. he's one cocky bastard and tried to scare us away or something. but he's nice enough i guess if you put aside the cockiness.
today there was some sort of ceremony for my baby cousin so plenty of people came to my granny's place. all were relatives but most were virtual strangers, the kinds where you meet once a year and you cant seem to remember their names no matter how hard you try. and the kids my age are all either mats or minahs so my only sort of comfort was ONE cousin who came but left pretty early. the day was spent reading in a noisy room or watching tv outside, pretending i understood the conversations around me.
anyway 5 more days to presentation and i've just only decided what i will be wearing. long pants [black] and a striped blue shirt, with a thin v neck sweater like top and heels. no blazer. thank god. but for fuck's sake, can anybody visualise me in those kinda clothes? cos i certainly cant.
i love you i love you i hate you i hate you.
sicko.
soma coma [10:38:00 PM]
[ Saturday, October 11, 2003 ]
ok i will never get why channel 5 persists in showing crappy-ass shows like WWE and other dumb shows. i mean sheesh who watches wrestling anymore anyway? but. oh the irony! american beauty is playing next sunday! i watched it on HBO once and i fell in love with it. so basically channel 5 is like that boy who comes late on a date and acts like a total egomaniac but then says or does something sweet and totally uncalled for just before you feel like you are about to burst in rage.just like that.
was supposed to go to the beach today buy canceled last minute cos of reasons unforseen. so we [me elaine and amal] went to town instead. dressed for the beach. so there i was in my slippers and elaine in her shorts and amal in her, wait amal was wearing normal clothes. akward at first but we got over it soon enough. ate lunch at delifrance and the soup of the day was onion soup. how gross is that. after that we just slacked around, from heeren to lido to far east. took neoprints, pretending we were the cutest bitches on earth haahaa.
went home, bathed and went to granny's place to have dinner and cut my hair. i just cut the back part shorter and it's okay i guess. i dont get how my hair takes ages to grow after a haircut but it'll become thicker and thicker. weird.
so i'm at a point in my life where i'm almost contented. school sucks but i think deep down i'm happy to be actually doing something, anything. friends are great. nurul, amal, elaine, nadia, azeana, ashila and my classmates. i think friends make life worth living, dont you? well, at least now i think so. spanks people, for putting up with my bullshit.
yah some pictures to liven up this boring post.
i swear my teeth arent like that in real life haahaa.
my mom. she rocks. for now.
i'm suicidal. ha. ha. ha. as if.
this is the FATASS cat who doesnt move at all from the bus stop opposite my school.
soma coma [11:29:00 PM]
[ Friday, October 10, 2003 ]
goodbye mr jack purcell
hello mr chuck taylor [jr]
it's not as if i dont want you any more, Mr Purcell. you had to go and wear yourself out. now. you have a huge tear at the side and thus Mr Socks would be obvious to the world. you leave me with no choice Mr Purcell. oh have you met Mr Taylor Jr?
i have way to much time on my hands.
soma coma [10:31:00 PM]
[ Thursday, October 09, 2003 ]
so i found out today that Stepford Wives will be made into a movie! With Nicole Kidman as the lead. it'd better be good or else.holy shit i have a formal presentation next friday and i have to wear everything, the works! i cant imagine myself with a blazer and those formal pump shoes and all. weird man. but i cant wait for some reason. maybe to get the whole freaking thing over and done with? heck if i know.
i uploaded like over a hundred photos but have no idea where to put them up. help me goddamit!
i'm also officially broke.
soma coma [10:37:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, October 08, 2003 ]
and another thing. i'll prob go crazy if i dont clean up my room soon. i cant find anything. nor can i find space to do anything. i never thought i'd say this but...i'm cleaning my room on friday.
soma coma [11:24:00 PM] believe it or not but i have stage fright. or presentation fright. or just plain talking. either way i'm a qualified loser because of this right?
the presentation just now was okay except for the part where i'm supposed to talk. to the audience. and i kept looking at my note card instead of the audience which according to many is the number one boo-boo of presentation. i cant help it damn it! who would have thought, me having stage fright.
or it could be because it was 8 am!! my brain wasnt functioning. i think.
after school we [the 3 psychos from TB008] went to Jurong Point to eat. the train ride from tampines to jurong point took forever. thank god i am not in Singapore Poly. could and would have gone nuts from the long hours on the MRT. after brunch, we went to esplanade to lepak. and lepak. and lepak. for the longest time. there's something extremely comforting in lepak-ing in the library while it rains. then we went home where i slept. then an unfortunate soul called me and i think i might have scared her off when i started to talk nonsence. yeah. that shit happens when you're disturbed from your deep slumber.
it's 11.05pm and i have to complete my analysis on 2 econs article.
can you see john lennon in this picture? cos i can.
soma coma [10:53:00 PM]
[ Tuesday, October 07, 2003 ]
so the only good thing about my OB presentation tomorrow is that i get to wear and show off my new skirt. hah!i heard this joke on spongebob squarepants.
why arent kids allowed to watch the new pirate movie?
because it was rated "Arrrrrrrh!!"
geddit geddit?!?!?! if you dont then well, you need to get out more.
if you got the joke, you need to get out. period.
i'm watching romeo and juliet while practising my lines for the presentation. woohoo you gotta love my life!!
oh i pierced the top part of my left ear just now. hehe.
soma coma [11:09:00 PM]
[ Monday, October 06, 2003 ]
PeOPle wHO tYPe LIkE ThIS dRIVE mE cRAzy.skipped lecture this morning for an even better alternative. breakfast at burger king. who needs accounts when you can have ham and eggs? i certainly dont.
my exams are in less than a month. goddamit was it just yesterday i was complaining about having to go to orientation? fucking crazy i tell ya. oh well, the faster i get this whole diploma thing the better.
you know whats even worse than couples having mock fights and cooing at each other? a malay couple french kissing at the bus stop, seating next to a malay makcik. fucking irony you say? downright rude. like get a room or something. damn.
good news: i dont have to give any more tuition! well, at least till the year ends.
soma coma [11:06:00 PM]
[ Saturday, October 04, 2003 ]
long live the ye-ye sisters and outings!so today i woke up at 10 to the smell of my mom cooking pasta. woohoo. i quickly bathed and ate a bit cos i was going out later. watched the royal tenembaums on cable which was a good enough kinda movie.
got ready and left the house to meet nad at city hall at 3+. went to eat at macdonalds. the new fish mcdippers are pretty good yo. walked around for a bit and we also came up with this crazy theory about the link about a person's face and his/her bag. we're crazy freaks and we love it.
went to hang around bras basah after that. we did the usual illegal stuff angsty teenagers do and talked and laughed and took pictures posing as Saloma and other movie stars from the yester-years. fun stuff man.
on the bus home my discman battery ran flat so the 45 odd min was spent watching some chinese [what else.] comedy and subjecting myself to unspeakable horror otherwise known as a couple having those mock fights. which is even worse than couples cooing at each other. but heck, what do i know anyway.
bila larut malam
soma coma [11:31:00 PM]
[ Friday, October 03, 2003 ]
really?finally, i have completed and handed in my 2 project assignments. two down, one last one to go. woohoo!
so i left class halfway just now because of this intense pain called the MENSTRUAL CRAMP. i couldnt stand it i excused myself and went home. took two painkillers and slept for two hours. woke up, bathed and went all the way to CCK to give tuition. what a long day.
i think i'll be piercing my ear[s] on monday. wish me luck.
soma coma [10:58:00 PM]
[ Wednesday, October 01, 2003 ]
i'm sick and tired of doing all the work goddamit. i seriously need a human punching bag.did i mention i think i'm gonna die soon? well, i do. not die, exactly but suffer from a disease.
i will miss you people.
life is superbly frustrating right now.
soma coma [10:36:00 PM]
